Thursday, June 29, 2006

Penguin fun

effing adorable

There's a person inside me

Its unbelievable. I had an ultrasound yesterday in the ER at Nyack (long story - I'm okay) and was amazed at how much Peanut has changed in just 6 weeks.
The technician showed Corey more than me, but I got to see hands, feet and fingers!! Five little fingers. It really brought it all home - there's a person growing inside of me!!
At my last ultrasound, even though I got to hear the heartbeat it didn't LOOK like a person. This time, it did. An ACTUAL person.
Peanut was active, too. Jumping around inside me. I can't feel it yet, no matter how still I lay & how much I concentrate. I know I have time for that, but after seeing it move - I'm dying to feel it move.

Monday, June 26, 2006

Going to the chapel...

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Monday, June 19, 2006

Many thanks

to everyone who emailed/im'd/called me about my previous post.
I'm fine. Much better now.
Like I said - I'm horomonal (more than usual).
I'm grumpy in the mornings or when I can't have a nap, I cry at the drop of a hat & I feel like a heifer. I just have to deal.

In the mean time, I'll have to console myself with these fabulous maternity t-shirts:

Here, here & here.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

The water works have begun...

Had my second OB appointment today. It was quite uneventful but for some reason – upset me terribly.
First: the doc wouldn’t try to hear the heartbeat because she said its still too early to hear it in the office. Okay. Fine. No heartbeat today. I was disappointed but, hey – shit happens.
Second: she can’t really answer my questions about my vitamins and kind of gives me the run-around about it. She talked an awful lot but didn’t say a whole bunch. I left there more confused about my vitamins than I was when I got there.
Third: she starts talking about genetic testing. When & what needs to be done or can be done and if I decide to do it. She starts saying that if I decide to do it that it should be done early because terminating the pregnancy is less risky at that point, yadda, yadda, yadda. Wait. What? Terminate what? Huh? When did this come up? Now, granted, I was already a little upset about the heartbeat thing so I probably didn’t hear EVERYTHING she said. Corey could probably clarify that it wasn’t as bad as I thought and I was practicing selective listening. I’m good at that.
So, now I leave the OB – say goodbye to my love and head to Stop & Shop where I spend 20 bucks on crap. Chips, cookies, crap. Just what I need.
OH…that’s another thing I’ve forgotten. I also gained five pounds. Great. I know its supposed to be a good thing to gain a little weight during pregnancy, but I don’t know if I’m emotionally prepared for that part. C’mon – think about it. All that crap I went through to LOSE the weight – now I’m gaining it back. Sigh.
Okay – so now I’m at work. A big ball of emotion. Can’t stop crying. Tears streaming down my face as I sit at my desk. No one’s talking to me – they know better. So what does one of my lovely co-workers do? Show me a picture from the Christmas party a few years ago where…you guessed it…I’m fat. Thanks. Just what I needed. Thanks.
I feel like I’m pms-ing. Its strange. I don’t feel pregnant. That’s a whole other problem. I know I’m just hormonal and I guess this should be expected. I’m just bitchy & weepy. Please excuse me and my sniffly nose.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Happy Birthday to Me!! (sorta)

Two years ago I made a drastic life change.
140 pounds later I'm happier than I've ever been and its not just the weight.
Look how much has happened to me. If you know me, you know how much my life has changed for the better.

Friday, June 09, 2006

None the wiser...

Had my second wisdom tooth pulled yesterday.
It was hell. H-E-L-L
I had a nasty cavity in the tooth that was bothering me last weekend so I called my oral surgeon of choice on Monday and made an appointment to have it yanked.
Fine. I've had a tooth pulled before - no big deal, right? forget: I'm pregnant. That means: NOVOCAINE ONLY. No nitrous, no anesthesia, no valium, no xanax. NOTHING.
Picture this: poor old Maggie Sue, who hates the dentist more than ANYTHING, sitting in the chair with a 170 lb man practically kneeling on me yanking at my tooth with pliers bigger than my head. Of course - this particular tooth had an exceptionally deep root so it took some effort. I don't know what was worse: the pressure, the noise of my tooth cracking or smelling the bone as he smoothed out my mandible.
Now, I'm in pain. Can't take any GOOD pain meds cause of p'nut - just extra strength tylenol.
PLUS, I have a busy weekend ahead of me. Trial wedding-hair today, Kelly's birthday dinner tonight, house hunting tomorrow morning, packing, meet with the organist in the afternoon and then a three hour drive to a brew-fest. Maybe it'll keep my mind off my boo-boo.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

That explains it

They say that a pregnant body at rest does as much work as a non-pregnant body mountain climbing.
I'm so tired...I need a nap.

Friday, June 02, 2006

Queen of Indecisiveness

That's me!
So, I went to David's Bridal a few weeks ago and brought home a BE-A-UTIFUL dress that I really liked an awful lot. I got the whole kit-n-kaboodle - dress, headpiece, veil, shoes, slip (might as well be a hairshirt its so damned itchy) and bra of torture.
There it hung - on my bedroom closet door - for a few weeks.
Last week, I took my darling niece Kassidy back to David's Bridal to try on flower girl dresses.
I walked into the bridal area and there it was. The dress of my dreams - and not the one hanging at home!!
I couldn't believe what I was seeing!! It was the dress I was looking for all along!
I didn't say a word - fearing the wrath of my mother. I could hear it already: "you can NEVER make up your mind!" or "Unbelievable, Margaret!" (my personal favorite)
So, I kept quiet...then...I couldn't anymore. I told my mom about the dress and took her to see it. She agreed with me. There has never been a dress that was more me.
I tried it on - fit like a glove (a size smaller, too! BONUS!!). The exchange was made and now...the dress of my DREAMS hangs on my closet door. I couldn't be happier.

Of course....I'm not allowed to set foot in a David's Bridal until AFTER the wedding.